Fix It All

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I remembered I always tried to make people laugh

I've always loved to make my friends laugh with me

I used to be the center of attention

And laughters and joys are all around me

But now how come,

being myself made the world turned its back on me?

As a matter of fact, if I would really squint on,

Maybe it is me who had turned my back on the world

All I wanted was to take a little rest,

to be a little out for a moment just to fix it all

but the more I idle, the more things I need to fix

Now I have to face them

To face the truth, my fear, and the real world

Where even a best friend would detest you.

So people do change,

They do come into your life, and leave you behind

But if they were going to leave me,

Maybe they were not destined to take part in my future.

I dare you to watch me,

The world is changing on me,

but that's okay- I'm on my way

Watch me fix it all

Because sometimes changes don't always mean a bad thing.

Coincidence and Perfection

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Suddenly, it's not so coincidentally-

Every second counts,

Every thought matters,

Leading to where I am now.

To the empty room,

With fading cars' sounds,

Waiting silently.

Waiting him to come,

To come back home to,

Where he belongs,

Where we belong.

To be with each other.

Perfection.

Becoming Real

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It really takes him a smile,

and he's all in my dreams once again,

But this time,

He's no longer a mere dream.

When it finally comes to an end,

The hoping and the crashing,

The hurting and the waiting,

I was so jaded with the dark night sky,

Now I can finally see

How stunning the light blue sky,

With a gentle morning breeze is.

That was when I thought that,

Nights got the most beautiful scenery.

I guess I was wrong.

But I do mistakes, once, twice,

And I was sure that,

Loving you wasn't a mistake.

I was so afraid of the awkward morning after,

But when the sun comes up,

And sun rays goes through the curtain-less windows

Make ups and kisses are all that I find,

All I feel is to love

and to be loved.

Don't you dream about me,

Because this time I'll become your reality.

Don't Hold Your Breath

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When there was jealousy and desperation,

in the air I breathe,

It's because I breathe you like you were my oxygen,

Suffocating, struggling,

You were so breathtaking-

But I thought if one day,

You could be the air around me,

then I don't mind being a little breathless.

I have always been so sure that without you,

the world will turn airless for me.

But now I can find myself breathing the scent of green leaves,

Standing tall and taking in,

Of the air that wasn't you anymore

You aren't so breath-taking, even from the beginning,

I was just holding my breath.

Walking The Town

It doesn’t mean a thing, after all.

Every single thing he said, every little things he did,

Because I’m nothing so good, nothing so special in his eyes.

Once he told me,

“I’ll take you around the town when the time is right.”

But I knew everything is wrong when it comes to us.

Walking around the town wasn’t something so entertaining before,

And when did singing to a musical music become something so fun?

Still, she gets them all.

Oh how she gets them all, and all I have is a lousy jealousy.

She left me here, contemplating and regretting everything for what I can’t get,

She gets the singing and the whistling, I get a cold mattress.

She gets to see the parade in the town, while I get a lonely ride back home.

She gets the sharing stories nights, and I get my pillow to share my tears

She gets to be with him, so I get to bear the sight of her being with him.