Passion

I had a dream about a lot, lot of dogs. So out of curiosity, I tried to find my dream meaning from dream moods, and here's what I found:

"To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. Alternatively, it indicates a skill that you have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it signifies some inner conflict within yourself."

After seeing this, I remember how much skill I neglected instead of improved. Before, I used to love drawings and writings. I love designing website, and I love writing blogs. Not to mention, I used to draw as a channel for my feelings.

I really wish I didn't quit drawing. Whose stupid perception was it that drawings will not get us a decent job? What a shallow thinking that drawings will not lead us to good money. There is a quote saying, "Follow your passion, Money will follow", and how true it is.

Like I mentioned before, I'm back at my starting point. I could barely draw a head, let alone a full anatomically correct body. See my wonderful 'progression'; it is stuck at the level 'doodling'.

....WHAT IS THIS CRAP??

Anyhow, I wanted to go back at drawings, but there is no one around me (that I know) that has a passion in drawings the same way I do. I feel less challenged, and no motivation whatsoever to draw again.

ARRRGHH. I know I should've taken media...but I hate coding with passion. But anyway, phycology is my second choice, and Human Resources comes next, so I guess it's okay.

Bonus:

What a coincidence, I was just going to end my post when suddenly Hiro in the heroes series (my bf is watching it the moment I write this post), said something like this,

"Find a job that you love, something that doesn't feel like work."

Ordinary day

Today I overslept and end up skipping the first class. Not something unusual, knowing it is me. My attendance are barely above 80%, but no change whatsoever to my habit of skipping classes when I feel sleepy. I got the dockets anyway. Why worry then?

It rains a lot lately. When I was in my way to campus it started to rain. Such a nice weather to sleep. I love rain, with a cup of hot tea and a plate of banana fritters... mmmmmmmmm.

In the class? 20% paid attention to the lecturer, 80% spacing out/talking to friend. We were laughing a lot at Vinitha's photo, where her expression looks like what a prime minister would have when his picture is taken. We've been calling her 'prime minister' over and over again until she becomes mad and left us behind.

and there she goes.

Spent my night watching The Ugly Truth with Paulus while eating Tao Kae Noi, my favorite snack. It was a nice movie, Gerard Butler is soooo dreamy.

After that, we went to eat dinner at Longkang, and that's all for today. Not to mention facebooking like crazy though.

Back with Unfinished Work

It's been a long time since I've updated this blog. I kinda miss writing blog post and giving each of them a careful thought, and how each blog post has a hidden meaning only me can understand -- but of course with a little bit drama. Everyone loves a little drama ; )

Anyway, I have this project that since this posting is posted, I haven't been able to finish it. Lazy? Maybe. I know you might think I'm just being lazy but I really want to finish it..

but it's not that easy, since I don't have that much lazy times nowadays and I couldn't colour eyes properly.. I think it's because of the bad anatomy of the characters since this is an

old sketch.

But guess what? My drawing sucks now. I really mean it. I just can draw the basic things...but anatomy and pose? I'm back at my starting point, really.

For anyone who doesn't notice, it's from the series kingdom hearts II : )

Who else love this game? I sure do. ROXAS! 8D

That Green Gentleman

That Green Gentleman

Panic At the Disco

Things are shaping up to be pretty odd

Little deaths in musical beds

So it seems I'm someone I've never met

You will only hear these elegant crimes

Fall on your ears from criminal dimes

They spill unfound from a pretty mouth

And everybody gets there, everybody gets there

And everybody gets their way

I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her

Now I'm the only one to blame

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I want to go where everyone goes

I want to know what everyone knows

I want to go where everyone feels the same

I never said I'd leave the city

I never said I'd leave this town

A falling out we won't tiptoe about

When everybody gets there, everybody gets there

And everybody gets their way

I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her

Now I'm the only one to blame

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I feel the same, and I say

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

(Well, things have changed for me

Come on every body, let's dance and sing)

I feel the same, and I say

(I'm singing it all night long

So come on everybody and join the party)

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

(Well, things have changed for me

Come on everyone, let's dance and sing)

I feel the same, and I say

(I'm singing it all night long

So come on everybody and sing along)

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I'm on my way, and I say

Things have changed for me

Fix It All

image by biewoef

I remembered I always tried to make people laugh

I've always loved to make my friends laugh with me

I used to be the center of attention

And laughters and joys are all around me

But now how come,

being myself made the world turned its back on me?

As a matter of fact, if I would really squint on,

Maybe it is me who had turned my back on the world

All I wanted was to take a little rest,

to be a little out for a moment just to fix it all

but the more I idle, the more things I need to fix

Now I have to face them

To face the truth, my fear, and the real world

Where even a best friend would detest you.

So people do change,

They do come into your life, and leave you behind

But if they were going to leave me,

Maybe they were not destined to take part in my future.

I dare you to watch me,

The world is changing on me,

but that's okay- I'm on my way

Watch me fix it all

Because sometimes changes don't always mean a bad thing.