Letting Go

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Sometimes you need to leave, to see who's gonna go after you.

Obviously, it's not you.

"No, It's because I feel concerned about you, that's why.."

That's why you're letting me go?

"For your own sake."

Then it was nothing, next, it was a sound of shutting door.

But you know the hardest part is to let go of you.

You know it's hard because, I don't want to.

Heaven Wasn't Too Far

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So much things needed to be said,

But am I saying it too much?

Am I pushing it too far?

Do I make you mad?

Do I try too hard?

Tell me, am I going anywhere?

Am I doing it right?

To quit, is that what you need me to do?

To step back, is this a fitting gap you want?

Not to wait for you, I did it the way you like

I know I shouldn't, feel like I have a chance

When I came across your, oh-so-mind-blowing words

along with your fall-hard-for smiles,

And suddenly,

Heaven doesn't feel so far anymore.

Apology

Sweat drips in my eyes (you’re everything)
Screams of lust we cry (you’re everything)
Tonight, you are everything (you’re everything)
You’re everything to me no more

As I wake
From this perfect dream
I can not stay down
Live this lie for I
Now must think only of myself

And to think that you will not be
Scared or surprised if I'd severed
All these ties (this is the end)
This is the end

I’ll lose myself in anguish
For tonight (this is the end)
Help me get over you (I feel so numb)

I feel so numb to
See this bitter end
It has come to this
One last kiss
Broken pieces will not mend
To save our past
Save our past now
(this is the end)

I’ll lose myself in anguish for tonight
Help me get over you (this is the end)
One last false apology
Help me get over you

In my mind blood drips from your eyes
A beautiful last goodbye

Bring The Pain

It was just in your mind,
all the thoughts,
blinding, corrupting, destructing..
from the inside,
crept through your veins,
like a deathly venom
convulsed in your brain.

when you were sane,
it's funny how you can easily shrug those off.
but then things change,
the moment you began to notice
things you haven't noticed before,
and you shouldn't have.

the way he brushed his hair with his slender fingers,
the way his lips curved into a smile,
the way he made you laugh, laugh, laugh
the way he inhaled the air around him,
and oh, how can you miss,
the way he looked at her, her, and just, only her.

still, you looked so alive,
with all the stabs and the hurting,
you still had those fake smile,
and fake "it's fine" words,
with a daring black eyes,
that screamed,
"bring the pain",

how can I even dare myself to look at you?
looking back at me, with those same stare,
tired eyes, faded smile, so painfully alive,
but there, still hanging on,
another part of me.

The Important Rule Of Having Fun

When she whines, whines,
and complains just how
God nor life is fair,
She just doesn't know how to have fun.

Oh, how she didn't know how to have fun (without a companionship).

Been forever,
and never have been better,
the way night pass with laughter,
when they don't even need the lighter,
in the caffeine shop, sitting in a corner,
and heartbreaks don't as much matter.

this is the thing she will not let it break and shatter,
the thing they shared, the thing they had, all of them,
all the greatest, the loveliest, the best.
best friends.

this is all for you,
you know who you are,
thank you for the precious moments.
xoxo.
V.