That Green Gentleman

That Green Gentleman

Panic At the Disco

Things are shaping up to be pretty odd

Little deaths in musical beds

So it seems I'm someone I've never met

You will only hear these elegant crimes

Fall on your ears from criminal dimes

They spill unfound from a pretty mouth

And everybody gets there, everybody gets there

And everybody gets their way

I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her

Now I'm the only one to blame

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I want to go where everyone goes

I want to know what everyone knows

I want to go where everyone feels the same

I never said I'd leave the city

I never said I'd leave this town

A falling out we won't tiptoe about

When everybody gets there, everybody gets there

And everybody gets their way

I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her

Now I'm the only one to blame

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I feel the same, and I say

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

(Well, things have changed for me

Come on every body, let's dance and sing)

I feel the same, and I say

(I'm singing it all night long

So come on everybody and join the party)

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

(Well, things have changed for me

Come on everyone, let's dance and sing)

I feel the same, and I say

(I'm singing it all night long

So come on everybody and sing along)

Things have changed for me, and that's okay

I'm on my way, and I say

Things have changed for me

Fix It All

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I remembered I always tried to make people laugh

I've always loved to make my friends laugh with me

I used to be the center of attention

And laughters and joys are all around me

But now how come,

being myself made the world turned its back on me?

As a matter of fact, if I would really squint on,

Maybe it is me who had turned my back on the world

All I wanted was to take a little rest,

to be a little out for a moment just to fix it all

but the more I idle, the more things I need to fix

Now I have to face them

To face the truth, my fear, and the real world

Where even a best friend would detest you.

So people do change,

They do come into your life, and leave you behind

But if they were going to leave me,

Maybe they were not destined to take part in my future.

I dare you to watch me,

The world is changing on me,

but that's okay- I'm on my way

Watch me fix it all

Because sometimes changes don't always mean a bad thing.

Coincidence and Perfection

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Suddenly, it's not so coincidentally-

Every second counts,

Every thought matters,

Leading to where I am now.

To the empty room,

With fading cars' sounds,

Waiting silently.

Waiting him to come,

To come back home to,

Where he belongs,

Where we belong.

To be with each other.

Perfection.

Becoming Real

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It really takes him a smile,

and he's all in my dreams once again,

But this time,

He's no longer a mere dream.

When it finally comes to an end,

The hoping and the crashing,

The hurting and the waiting,

I was so jaded with the dark night sky,

Now I can finally see

How stunning the light blue sky,

With a gentle morning breeze is.

That was when I thought that,

Nights got the most beautiful scenery.

I guess I was wrong.

But I do mistakes, once, twice,

And I was sure that,

Loving you wasn't a mistake.

I was so afraid of the awkward morning after,

But when the sun comes up,

And sun rays goes through the curtain-less windows

Make ups and kisses are all that I find,

All I feel is to love

and to be loved.

Don't you dream about me,

Because this time I'll become your reality.

Don't Hold Your Breath

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When there was jealousy and desperation,

in the air I breathe,

It's because I breathe you like you were my oxygen,

Suffocating, struggling,

You were so breathtaking-

But I thought if one day,

You could be the air around me,

then I don't mind being a little breathless.

I have always been so sure that without you,

the world will turn airless for me.

But now I can find myself breathing the scent of green leaves,

Standing tall and taking in,

Of the air that wasn't you anymore

You aren't so breath-taking, even from the beginning,

I was just holding my breath.

Walking The Town

It doesn’t mean a thing, after all.

Every single thing he said, every little things he did,

Because I’m nothing so good, nothing so special in his eyes.

Once he told me,

“I’ll take you around the town when the time is right.”

But I knew everything is wrong when it comes to us.

Walking around the town wasn’t something so entertaining before,

And when did singing to a musical music become something so fun?

Still, she gets them all.

Oh how she gets them all, and all I have is a lousy jealousy.

She left me here, contemplating and regretting everything for what I can’t get,

She gets the singing and the whistling, I get a cold mattress.

She gets to see the parade in the town, while I get a lonely ride back home.

She gets the sharing stories nights, and I get my pillow to share my tears

She gets to be with him, so I get to bear the sight of her being with him.

With Closed Eyes

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Sleepless nights and heartaches,

Are all that you’ll ever be

I’ll just close my eyes

And you’ll be there, smiling,

While I’ll be unblinking, mesmerizing.

The illusion was more than enough,

But when it comes to you,

I can’t get enough.

And all I want to do is to make it all worthwhile,

Your warm hands against mine cold ones

And we’ll laugh, we’ll cry, we’ll sing again,

Just that time, I guess it was okay

And it didn’t matter if you didn’t really mean to.

But your hand wasn’t mine to hold,

When it’s 5 in the morning,

Even with closed eyes still,

You were not there.

Eventually, surely,

I couldn’t remember the feeling of your fingers intertwined with mines

I’ll found myself in my pillow that barely smells like you anymore.

Letting Go

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Sometimes you need to leave, to see who's gonna go after you.

Obviously, it's not you.

"No, It's because I feel concerned about you, that's why.."

That's why you're letting me go?

"For your own sake."

Then it was nothing, next, it was a sound of shutting door.

But you know the hardest part is to let go of you.

You know it's hard because, I don't want to.

Heaven Wasn't Too Far

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So much things needed to be said,

But am I saying it too much?

Am I pushing it too far?

Do I make you mad?

Do I try too hard?

Tell me, am I going anywhere?

Am I doing it right?

To quit, is that what you need me to do?

To step back, is this a fitting gap you want?

Not to wait for you, I did it the way you like

I know I shouldn't, feel like I have a chance

When I came across your, oh-so-mind-blowing words

along with your fall-hard-for smiles,

And suddenly,

Heaven doesn't feel so far anymore.

Apology

Sweat drips in my eyes (you’re everything)
Screams of lust we cry (you’re everything)
Tonight, you are everything (you’re everything)
You’re everything to me no more

As I wake
From this perfect dream
I can not stay down
Live this lie for I
Now must think only of myself

And to think that you will not be
Scared or surprised if I'd severed
All these ties (this is the end)
This is the end

I’ll lose myself in anguish
For tonight (this is the end)
Help me get over you (I feel so numb)

I feel so numb to
See this bitter end
It has come to this
One last kiss
Broken pieces will not mend
To save our past
Save our past now
(this is the end)

I’ll lose myself in anguish for tonight
Help me get over you (this is the end)
One last false apology
Help me get over you

In my mind blood drips from your eyes
A beautiful last goodbye

Bring The Pain

It was just in your mind,
all the thoughts,
blinding, corrupting, destructing..
from the inside,
crept through your veins,
like a deathly venom
convulsed in your brain.

when you were sane,
it's funny how you can easily shrug those off.
but then things change,
the moment you began to notice
things you haven't noticed before,
and you shouldn't have.

the way he brushed his hair with his slender fingers,
the way his lips curved into a smile,
the way he made you laugh, laugh, laugh
the way he inhaled the air around him,
and oh, how can you miss,
the way he looked at her, her, and just, only her.

still, you looked so alive,
with all the stabs and the hurting,
you still had those fake smile,
and fake "it's fine" words,
with a daring black eyes,
that screamed,
"bring the pain",

how can I even dare myself to look at you?
looking back at me, with those same stare,
tired eyes, faded smile, so painfully alive,
but there, still hanging on,
another part of me.

The Important Rule Of Having Fun

When she whines, whines,
and complains just how
God nor life is fair,
She just doesn't know how to have fun.

Oh, how she didn't know how to have fun (without a companionship).

Been forever,
and never have been better,
the way night pass with laughter,
when they don't even need the lighter,
in the caffeine shop, sitting in a corner,
and heartbreaks don't as much matter.

this is the thing she will not let it break and shatter,
the thing they shared, the thing they had, all of them,
all the greatest, the loveliest, the best.
best friends.

this is all for you,
you know who you are,
thank you for the precious moments.
xoxo.
V.

Take me seriously

oh, you find this funny, don't you ?

It's my poisonous disease kicking in,
I needed my medication,
but It got me addicted and now,
I'm drowning in my own piles of aspirins.

the pills, they didn't ease the heartache away
the cuts, they weren't as deep as the cuts in the heart
the voices, they didn't turn the echoes in my head into silence
the alcohols, they didn't show the hallucination I want to see
the cigarettes and the bullets,
they're so going to be my place to come back to.

Use me, abuse me, break me, smother me.
Then you'll say you idolize me, adore me, love me, and
Take me seriously,
And how I hope to God, you really meant it.

Everything, or nothing at all.
It doesn't matter.
Not anymore.
And definitely not you.

I always thought I knew the game that I was playing,
but I'm losing the game.
You're going to be the last one, the last one,
the last time.
The next time I'm going to do this,
I'll make damn sure we're playing my game.

Heartbreak-proof

I thought all this time,

no matter what I say or do,

the message isn't getting through.

But I was wrong.

You got the message,

Only you weren't giving any feedback.

No, not responding is YOUR feedback.

So then, I have to let go of you.

After all this time I held you in my heart,

because I couldn't hold you in my arms.

But now, I'm no longer holding on.

I wish you would have said that you needed me to stay

I should have known you didn't need me to

But still, I wanted to.

It's frustrating, how

you always acted like you've never been through this before

I always thought we could be so much more

I think I got the wrong idea

And I hope I was

Heartbreak-proof.

First Post, So?

First post, biasanya introductory post..
Harusnya sih nulis,
"Hai, gw viya. umur 17. mahasiswi. single, malah double!"
Tapi kali ini gw mau straight to the point aja deh.
Ok, ini blog gw ke 128984924 juta.
Biasanya sih gw cuma semangat awalnya doank kalo mau bikin blog.
Tapi kali ini....

....kayaknya bakal sama aja.

Khusus blog ini..
mungkin bakal gw isi klo gw pengen aja..
dan mungkin bakal cuma di isi uneg2 gw aja.
yang kemungkinan besar cuma gw yang ngerti.
tapi yaudala yaa..
namanya juga blog gw..
gw bikin untuk kesenangan sndiri : )

So, welcome anyway.