Take me seriously

oh, you find this funny, don't you ?

It's my poisonous disease kicking in,
I needed my medication,
but It got me addicted and now,
I'm drowning in my own piles of aspirins.

the pills, they didn't ease the heartache away
the cuts, they weren't as deep as the cuts in the heart
the voices, they didn't turn the echoes in my head into silence
the alcohols, they didn't show the hallucination I want to see
the cigarettes and the bullets,
they're so going to be my place to come back to.

Use me, abuse me, break me, smother me.
Then you'll say you idolize me, adore me, love me, and
Take me seriously,
And how I hope to God, you really meant it.

Everything, or nothing at all.
It doesn't matter.
Not anymore.
And definitely not you.

I always thought I knew the game that I was playing,
but I'm losing the game.
You're going to be the last one, the last one,
the last time.
The next time I'm going to do this,
I'll make damn sure we're playing my game.

Heartbreak-proof

I thought all this time,

no matter what I say or do,

the message isn't getting through.

But I was wrong.

You got the message,

Only you weren't giving any feedback.

No, not responding is YOUR feedback.

So then, I have to let go of you.

After all this time I held you in my heart,

because I couldn't hold you in my arms.

But now, I'm no longer holding on.

I wish you would have said that you needed me to stay

I should have known you didn't need me to

But still, I wanted to.

It's frustrating, how

you always acted like you've never been through this before

I always thought we could be so much more

I think I got the wrong idea

And I hope I was

Heartbreak-proof.

First Post, So?

First post, biasanya introductory post..
Harusnya sih nulis,
"Hai, gw viya. umur 17. mahasiswi. single, malah double!"
Tapi kali ini gw mau straight to the point aja deh.
Ok, ini blog gw ke 128984924 juta.
Biasanya sih gw cuma semangat awalnya doank kalo mau bikin blog.
Tapi kali ini....

....kayaknya bakal sama aja.

Khusus blog ini..
mungkin bakal gw isi klo gw pengen aja..
dan mungkin bakal cuma di isi uneg2 gw aja.
yang kemungkinan besar cuma gw yang ngerti.
tapi yaudala yaa..
namanya juga blog gw..
gw bikin untuk kesenangan sndiri : )

So, welcome anyway.